It all started when I was a young girl and learned about the incredible magic in the Amazon rain forest. My eyes widen when I flipped to the next page in my schoolbook that pictured the devastating deforestation of that beautiful place. I remember distinctly at such a young age, that there must be a way to sustainably utilize the inconceivable healing powers of the resources from the forest without complete destruction of ecosystems and habitats.
As for most of us as life goes on, we begin to layer on different beliefs throughout our upbringing and soon lose sight of our childhood dreams.
Fast forward to about four years ago when I found myself in a place where I could no longer continue the life I had been living. Perfectly put together on the outside, but depressed, suicidal, angry and anxiety rising by the day on the inside. I felt like I was constantly under attack of my own mind and I wasn’t winning. One night, it had gotten to a point that I will always remember.
It was in the middle of the night and was losing rapidly to the battle inside my head. I took off in the car and pulled into a dark school parking lot. I knew that this was the moment I could not handle one more thought. My mind had demonized and taken over. On this night, in between the air-gasping sobs and tears streaming down my face, I surrendered. Not by choice, but by necessity. I begged and pleaded with my hands above my head to whomever was "up there" to end this misery for me. As a mother, wife, daughter, sister, friend - I didn't have the heart to take my own life. I pleaded for something greater than I to take me instead.
As I was expecting something to answer my prayers and remove me from my human life - nothing happened. I blinked around and quieted. Nothing happened to me physically, but something happened. Something within me decided that I was no longer going to let my mind control me. And that was all that happened. That was the night. The night I now call my "awakening".
Little did I know, that was the day that began my journey to return to my natural self. My highest self. Or the me, who has always been there beneath all the layers.
It began with yoga and turned into a deep passion and appreciation for meditation. From this place I was able to become witness to my mind which opened me up to the most profound life shift I never believed possible. Continuing on, it has lead me to my own exploration of spirituality, and own my healing journey.
Fast forward again to the present moment. This path has now lead me back to my highest self, which has reinforced my deep love for this planet - the elements, the animals and the incredible magic that nature offers. I now am certain of my life purpose of being an earth warrior. I am here to be a voice for our wonderful Earth and help re-connect our human race with her.
I am here to be a resource for those who resonate with my story and seek solace and connection in their life. I believe with all of my being, that we are all interconnected and each and every decision that is made every second of each day does indeed have an impact. We have the ability to make the life we have always dreamed of and a planet that not only exists, but allows each of its inhabitants to thrive.
It is my deepest gratitude to be here speaking with you. And know that I am on the other side of the screen welcoming you with open arms.
My soul honors your soul.
I honor the place in you where the entire universe resides.
I honor the light, love, truth, beauty and peace within you
because it is also within me.
In sharing these things, we are united, we are the same, we are one.